I'm ashamed of me

I can't sleep at night, try as I might it never comes. My thoughts race, as my body aches. I cry all night but nobody cares, I'm a disgrace to my family, to broken to work. I have the soul of an artist in a world consumed by greed. I can't earn money so I'm worthless, I can't lift heavy things so I'm helpless. I cry out for help yet like this blog it's unnoticed. My father's rage and disgust towards me rises to the surface almost every conversation I have with him, he plays it off as a joke, but his words are daggers. Everyday I wanna die more.

I'm scared......