I climbed a mountain today. I thought along the way. Why must I feel this sadness, this unceasing pain. I climbed a mountain today. I begged, pleaded, and cried alone all the way. When I reached the top, there was no cliff to jump off. I climbed a mountain today. When you need guidance, strength, or divine intervention. Climb a mountain and you'll find none, I think I should just get a gun. I climbed a mountain today. Because all the spirits and Gods left us so long ago.
You know I realized something today, I'm empty. I'm empty, because everyday that goes by I'm reminded that I'm alone. I'm alone because I'm heartbroken. And finally I'm heartbroken because everyone breaks my heart at some point.
When you're a warrior every day is a battle. Some are small like what should I eat, others are huge and range from anxiety and depression to you vs 20 people with guns. And what sucks is most of these battles people don't see or worse don't care about. I deal with anxiety and depression every day and some days are easy which is still an up hill battle, but some days like today are like every ounce of pain in the world belongs to you and nothing helps. When people hear about veteran suicide rates they always say it sucks, which yes it does but that's not gonna solve anything. All a warrior wants is to stop fighting and sometimes that's the only way out. All I want...............is to stop fighting.
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