Day 7

Soooooo girlfriend is no more apparently, I feel like I'm dying not just about that but my depression and anxiety are still haywire. So my dad tried to hand me 2 jobs basically 2 interviews and I didn't get either of them. Gods I'm such a failure. Hell nobody even reads this fucking blog.

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