Life of a warrior

So I live in Georgia now and it's kinda peaceful here, until I see people. I got a new phone (android FTW), still no job but I'm looking. My anxiety and depression are still hitting me hard, everyday it feels like everyone hates me and wants me to die. At least I have my little cub (girlfriend) she keeps me strong I'm getting her through her divorce it's kinda d of sketchy how we met but she's so amazing. Btw I'm into BDSM and so is she.

So I leave technically tonight for GA, and it's the first time my sister is doing anything for me even talking to me since she told me to gtfo. I've packed most of my shit and got everything out of my car.

Life is one eminence shit show! So I was in a car accident yesterday, lost my job 2 weeks ago, got dumped about the same time, oh and get this my own sister is kicking me out. And as I admitted last night to you guys (although I doubt anyone reads this) I have anxiety and depression. So I'm a world of messed up right now.

When you're a warrior every day is a battle. Some are small like what should I eat, others are huge and range from anxiety and depression to you vs 20 people with guns. And what sucks is most of these battles people don't see or worse don't care about. I deal with anxiety and depression every day and some days are easy which is still an up hill battle, but some days like today are like every ounce of pain in the world belongs to you and nothing helps. When people hear about veteran suicide rates they always say it sucks, which yes it does but that's not gonna solve anything. All a warrior wants is to stop fighting and sometimes that's the only way out. All I want...............is to stop fighting.